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April 21, 2011 · Filed under Career, Family, Feminism, Food, Friends, Home, Love, People, Priorities, San Antonio, TX, Self-Realization, Sisterhood, Social Services
As a person…
I am: empathetic
I hope: to succeed
I believe: in giving everyone a chance
I wish: that people could be generous to one another
I fear: losing my family
I give: up sometimes
I need: to get motivated
I want: to be self-sufficient
I am unique because: of the way I look
My secret talents are: cutting hair and baking
I feel best about myself when: I’m with my friends and family
The things I like most about myself are: my sense of humor and strong personality
I’m worth respecting because: I care about others
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I encourage teen moms to share their answers to the questions above. I decided I should too. Sometimes being honest is hard, but its never wrong.
-VC
March 29, 2011 · Filed under Family, Feminism, Friends, Higher Education, Love, Poverty, Priorities, San Antonio, TX, Self-Realization, Social Services, the Future · Tagged deadbeat dads, Life, making lifelong friends, relationships, strong women
When I awoke this morning, I expected the day to turn out ordinary. A typical Monday.
Aside from my soy latte, there was nothing typical about it.
I think back to a time where I was lonely, even surrounded by everybody, to a time where I was lost and the future looked cloudy, and I relish the fact that I am no longer there. I am here. I am who I am. And I know what I am supposed to do.
I will continue to make mistakes, to say hurtful things probably and speak before thinking. I will drive too fast and still bite my nails. I will jump the gun. I will criticize people’s ways of cleaning.
I am pretty sure the state of enlightenment I experienced today will stay with me forever. Today I truly fell in love with being human.
I am optimistic about growing older.
-VC
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September 5, 2010 · Filed under Family, Friends, Home, Love, Priorities, Self-Realization, the Future
Adulthood and doing something because it needs to be done not because you want to do it. Following through – it hurts like hell but oh well.
I’ve always had to be serious one. I’d like to play for the other team one day.
-VC
July 10, 2010 · Filed under Friends, Health, Love, Priorities, Self-Realization
for a good while, I wore contact lenses that were at a prescription too strong for my eyes, that also have a tendency to be overly dry.
but then I visited my optometrist and put in a new, fresh pair of lenses:
and I felt like a new woman.
I could no longer feel my eyes working harder than they needed to, nor did I even feel as if I was wearing contacts at all!
My optometrist seemed very please to hear this.
But it was bittersweet experience for me because while I was happy to see and feel better, I was also upset that I’d spent so much time wearing something that was both uncomfortable and harmful for me.
I loath making mistakes. I’ve learned from them, sure. And, obviously, the lessons learned and the experiences lived are forever beneficial to my well-being, but I have a lingering feeling…
What if I get the wrong prescription again sometime in the future? I am no doctor. How can I know better? What if I spend precious time with something that hurts me instead of helping me? How will I know? What can I do?
Question everything?
-VC
July 4, 2010 · Filed under Art, Career, Education, Family, Friends, Love, Self-Realization, the Future
I thought the best things in life were supposed to inspire me.
-VC
May 17, 2010 · Filed under American Studies, Education, Love, Self-Realization
I’ve been pretty sick lately, my days filled with various different ailments. I was thinking that something was seriously wrong with me and that I’d probably croak soon, but now I’m realzing that I’m just stressed out. And anxious. And frustrated. And in the need of a vacation. Really bad.
Some time in the sun. A place of fun. Blah, blah, blah.
I will probably pick up drinking coffee again. Ah, sweet relapse.
But it all seems worth it because I’m taking one of those classes that changes who you are and your perspective of the world you’ve known, where you can actually feel your brain growing smarter and your heart beating harder.
-VC
May 4, 2010 · Filed under Art, Friends, Love, Music, Photograhpy · Tagged creating, Friends, Love, Music, Photography
I do not possess any great talents, unless an ability to organize efficiently is a talent, then. Yes. I do possess one. But I do have many interests. And while they have pushed me to try a variety of different things, they’ve also kept me from concentrating on just one or two and becoming really, really good at anything. Maybe mediocre is ok.
Lately, I’ve been thinking more and more about playing/recording some music, making photographs, and putting to use the things I’ve learned from the creative and talented people around me. They’ve gotta be good for something, no? 
I find it peculiar that humans find it so important to leave a legacy – to make a mark on this world.
If feels so great to want to create something – anything. And I know that actually doing so will feel even greater.
-VC
April 24, 2010 · Filed under Education, Higher Education, Love · Tagged Education, Higher Education, Love
A day that felt like a Saturday.
Felt so good, yet so bizzare.
Today I briefly partcipated in a conversation about higher education. I’m not sure why I always defend it. Probably because I spent such an extensive part of my life pursuing it, and I’d feel like a fool if I agreed it was useless.
I could go on and on (and on) about how the world will treat me better because I know more about how to approach it but I won’t. That’s not what this blog is for. I have another one for that kind of nonsense. Ha.
I guess what I took away from the conversation is that a.) education made me a better person, and I don’t really care if someone else would disagree. Go ahead, watch your Discovery channel, read articles, whatever you think will make you smarter, I don’t know. b.) I’ve had an overwhelmingly amount of good fortune and love in my life and c.) I’ve done nothing about it. I’ve got little to show for it.
I’m not happy where I’m at. I’m stagnant. I’ve got to get moving. I was given the hammer, the nails, the wood, and the will. Now, it’s time to build that house.
Back to the blueprints.
-VC
April 23, 2010 · Filed under Family, Love, Priorities, Self-Realization · Tagged Family, Love, Self-realization
I used to have these dreams.
The dreams of a child of parents with even bigger dreams.
I’m not as strong as I seem. I’ve let the littlest things and the littlest people stop me from sleeping soundly.
Its time for me to bring back that person that I used to like to be.
And its going to be so hard because I’ve grown used to the weaker side of me.
And its going to take so long before I’m there again.
But I’ve got to believe they’re all worth it.
I’ve got to believe that I’m worth it
And that its worthwhile.
-VC
January 12, 2010 · Filed under Love, Self-Realization · Tagged Love, Self-realization
when everything seems to make sense and everything seems to be in it’s place and I have to start all over again, when I have to re-evaulate, and when
perpectives,
places,
and people
meet up, mix up, and mess up what I’ve passively been trying not to plan but planned anyway.
boo.
-VC
